Re: The Astronomy Tower

**Draco Malfoy** March 19th 2010, 9:58 am

[see I can do that... but my parents would NOT be happy to come home and find me with my laptop and the tudors... so that'll have to wait until college Wink

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**Molly Prewett** March 19th 2010, 10:00 am

[there's a time & place for everything and it's called college Wink

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**Draco Malfoy** March 19th 2010, 10:04 am

[that's the current theory that I'm working off Very Happy

well I think i'm going to leave for tonight and ~~finish my smutty romance novel about sexy firemen~~ sleep]

**Molly Prewett** March 19th 2010, 10:06 am

[lol good luck with that novel. I mean sleep.... feel better, talk to you tomorrow XX]

**Draco Malfoy** March 19th 2010, 10:07 am

[Love you! xx]

**Molly Prewett** March 19th 2010, 10:08 am

[love you too xx]

**Draco Malfoy** March 19th 2010, 10:57 am

[I finished it.... it was good!]

**Molly Prewett** March 19th 2010, 11:00 am

[yay!

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**Draco Malfoy** March 19th 2010, 11:02 am

[Now I can sleep happily and dream of sexy firemen.... and sexy business men... and sexy people in general.... Very Happy

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**Molly Prewett** March 19th 2010, 11:05 am

[well you don't want to discriminate - you should dream of all types of sexy people. It's only fair]

**Draco Malfoy** March 19th 2010, 11:06 am

[it really is only fair that way... Wink

]

**Molly Prewett** March 19th 2010, 11:18 am

[*nods seriously, because discrimination is bad*]

Guest March 19th 2010, 4:20 pm

Severus awoke, finding himself alone on the ground of the Astronomy Tower. Memories of last night came flooding back to him, and he stood up slowly, still terrified of what had happened and what might have happened to Remus.

**Remus Lupin** March 19th 2010, 4:24 pm

[YAY DRUNK REMUS LOOSE ON THE CASTLE WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! haha just kidding :3 that would have been hilarious though right? also...I'm a little bit worried about having this conversation in the Tower...Sev may jump again and that would suck.]

Guest March 19th 2010, 4:26 pm

[No, he won't, he promised Lily.]

**Remus Lupin** March 19th 2010, 4:30 pm

[whew that's good then]

Remus walked up to the top of the Tower not knowing if Sev was still up here or not but checking none the less just in case. A determined and grim expression was set upon his face. This needed to end and for good this time. No more chances for him to break and keep coming back messing with Sev's feelings. He wanted to be done with this and he was done with making himself happy. Sev was here still. Remus crossed his arms to keep himself together. He didn't look directly at Sev but at the wall behind him. "Did you stay up here all night?"

Guest March 19th 2010, 4:32 pm

Severus cried out when he saw Remus approaching, alive, in one piece. The sudden coldness in his voice stung; what had Severus done to deserve this? "What else could I have done? I couldn't find you, you were gone too fast," he replied, trying not to burst into tears of relief. He wanted to hold him, hug him, but something in him wouldn't let him do that.

**Remus Lupin** March 19th 2010, 4:38 pm

"You should have went back to your dorm...I was okay." He knew Sev couldn't have known that but he wasn't really thinking about that right now. "Look...there was a lot to think about and I've been trying to ignore it all for a while now but...last night I couldn't ignore it anymore. That's why I think I've been having those bad dreams. I thought it out a lot last night after I left here and I just...don't think I can continue this anymore. Not with you or with anyone else."

Guest March 19th 2010, 4:39 pm

"You... you.. you what?" Severus froze, not sure he was understanding what he was hearing. Is he... no, that's impossible, this isn't happening, this is a dream, this is one long horrible nightmare, I'll wake up soon, and it'll all be okay, he'll still be in my arms, none of this will have happened, it'll be okay...

Guest March 19th 2010, 4:45 pm

[Saw this. Thought of you.]

The Astronomy Tower - Page 23 Lupin_Wins__by_chromophobicrayons

**Remus Lupin** March 19th 2010, 4:51 pm

[haha xD that's epic. it really bugs me though that they call them werewolves though...i mean, aren't they just shape shifters? They should just be called Team Shape Shifters. Rolling Eyes

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"You deserve to be happy, to be loved, but I can't give that to you anymore. I can't give that to anyone anymore." I can't even learn to love myself how can I learn to properly love others? "I want to live without causing trouble or hurting peoples feelings. Right now I'm just setting you up for more disappointment again. I know I am. I would have thought that you'd have learned by now what a jerk I am. It's not that I haven't enjoyed our time together, I have, but...I can't keep ignoring this emptiness created when..." She left. "I can't escape it; I'm not even allowed to die to be free of it. I know now that no matter how much I love you you'll never be able to fill this emptiness. I'm sorry if that hurts your feelings...it's all I'm good at it seems, hurting people's feelings. I'm going to leave you alone now. I'm going to leave everyone alone as much as possible. I'd rather be alone than constantly hurting others. I'll be fine, I've dealt with being alone before. I'll live, get by, and deal with my werewolf problem by myself. I don't want James, Peter, or Sirius bothered by me anymore either. They've already done enough for me. Besides I think they're mad at me for defending you. I broke James's nose the other day...but I don't regret it. I'm sick of the way they treat you.
I'm uncontrollable now, I don't even know who I am these days, constantly acting in ways I normally don't..." He wanted to replace the cowardly, uncontrollable Remus with a strong, controlled Remus. Be someone who knew who he really was, someone who wouldn't hurt others, someone who could be strong and defend himself. It would take some time but he would manage it. He was determined.

Guest March 19th 2010, 4:56 pm

Severus stood there a moment with his mouth hanging open. He can't be serious?! He's not that stupid! He slowly walked up to him, mouth still open in shock, and slapped him hard across the face. "WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU REMUS?! THAT'S ALL NONSENSE! BULLSHIT! What the FUCK are you on about? What the fuck is this shit, wanting to be alone? Stop this! NOW! SNAP OUT OF IT REMUS! I don't know what the hell has gotten into you but this is utter nonsense! 'All I'm good for is hurting people' honestly Remus when did you hit your head?!"

**Remus Lupin** March 19th 2010, 5:06 pm

Oh...that hurt...totally deserved that. He pressed a hand on his face where Sev had slapped him. "I'm pretty sure I hit my head ages ago Sev..." This was not easy whatsoever but he was determined. "Just...give it up okay? I'm not good for you. Look at all the trouble I've caused. Stop wasting your time with me. Why would you want to spend your time with someone who can't stop dreaming or thinking about someone else? It doesn't sound pretty fair to me."

Guest March 19th 2010, 5:10 pm

Sev emitted a low growl and slapped him again, before throwing himself at Remus and kissing him hard. "BECAUSE I LOVE YOU REMUS! THAT'S WHY! I DON'T CARE! I don't care! I want you, I love you, I need you, don't leave me like this! YOU ARE GOOD FOR ME! You're the best thing that's ever happened to me! You've made me happy, Remus! HAPPY! I've never been this happy before! You can't do this, you can't take that away from me!" he screamed at him, clutching him desperately.

**Remus Lupin** March 19th 2010, 5:18 pm

He placed his hands on Sev's chest intent on shoving him away but he couldn't bring himself to do it. His open hands closed to fists and he tilted his head down so Sev couldn't see the angry tears in his eyes. "Stop. Just...stop. This is crazy. Just go alright?"

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