Re: The Fireplace

**Pansy Parkinson-Malfoy** March 26th 2010, 8:18 pm

"Yeah," Pansy said, wondering where they'd gone to. "It'll be alright." At least, I sure hope so, she thought. They wouldn't actually do anything, would they? She wasn't sure. She'd like to think that if they actually were plotting something, she would at least have been included. Everyone knew she liked to duel, right?

Guest March 26th 2010, 8:23 pm

"I suppose so, whatever murder they're planning should go well. After all, it's the crazy people who always get what they want in this universe."

Adrian Black - Inactive March 26th 2010, 8:26 pm

[Too true Autumn!]

**Pansy Parkinson-Malfoy** March 26th 2010, 8:26 pm

"That's the truth." Pansy laughed, but in an instant knew it was true. You had to be crazy sometimes to go get what you really wanted. Maybe that was what was wrong with her. Maybe she wasn't crazy enough for this world. She sighed and got up, headed for her dormitory. Sleeping in the library last night was stupid, and with her bed so close, she couldn't ignore it much longer. "I'll catch you around alright? I need a nap."

Guest March 26th 2010, 8:30 pm

"Alright, see you later!" she said as she stood and walked to the door. There had to be more stuff to do here...

Guest March 27th 2010, 4:41 am

Severus walks in, looking confused and dejected. He looks for Pansy but doesn't see her, so he charms a note to fly up to her dormitory.

Guest March 27th 2010, 5:03 am

[You coming Pansy?]

**Pansy Parkinson-Malfoy** March 27th 2010, 5:03 am

Pansy comes out from her dormitory, her cold hands buried in the pocket of her sweatshirt. She wandered out into the common room and saw Severus standing there. Sighing softly to herself, she sat down on the couch and looked up at him, wondering what had been up with him recently. "What's wrong, Sev?"

**Draco Malfoy** March 27th 2010, 5:06 am

[Aside from him fucking your ex? not much!]

Guest March 27th 2010, 5:06 am

[this is after whatever convo I'm having with Remus right now]

Severus looked at her, feeling utterly miserable beforehand, and feeling even worse now that she was being such a good friend to him- he didn't deserve it. Casting Muffliato so the others wouldn't hear, he sat down on the couch, taking Pansy by the hand and bringing her with him. "A lot. Everything. Pansy, I've done a lot of stupid shit this week... And I don't know what's going on, or what's happening to me, but if I don't get some self control, somebody's going to be dead."

**Draco Malfoy** March 27th 2010, 5:08 am

[KILL JAMES NOT ME!!!!!!!

holy shit.... my parents and their drunk friends are singing Edelweiss from Sound Of Music really really loudly.... and my dad is making farting noises off his phone... I think I should lock the alcohol away]

**Pansy Parkinson-Malfoy** March 27th 2010, 5:12 am

[And after the bachelorette party, so Pansy is still sliiiightly inebriated, though rather clear-headed because this girl can hold her liquor.]

Pansy sat down close to him, his warmth a bit of comfort from the cold room. The fire had gone out and no one cared enough to re-do it until the house elves would come later tonight. She squeezed his hand, knowing he was always extra hard on himself for things that happened and sometimes just needed a friend. She pushed her problems out of her mind, they didn't matter right now. It was all self-centered stupidity and her own idiotic delirium of believing people could change anyway. "What happened, Sev? You can tell me..."

Guest March 27th 2010, 5:17 am

[-feels REALLY guilty about Snaco-]

"Ever since that day I ran into Remus, things have been spiraling out of control. I've been a wreck since that lovely talk I had with Hermione and him. I'm doing horrible things, Pansy. I yelled at Lily. I threw a plate at Tam. But that's nothing, honestly. Pansy, I did some really stupid shit when I was drunk the other night. But what's the worst... I hurt Adrian yesterday, Pansy, and there wasn't any liquor to blame it on. Badly. I couldn't help it, I couldn't stop myself. I kept telling her to go away, I wasn't going to be able to control my temper, but she wouldn't go, she wouldn't leave. When she pulled the knife on me, I just snapped, Pansy. I pretty much raped her, and I probably wouldn't have stopped if she hadn't started telling me to hurt her. I suddenly realized what I was doing, and ran away. Pansy, what's wrong with me? What's happening to me? Why am I doing these things, these horrible things?" he said, his voice full of panic and frustration.

**Pansy Parkinson-Malfoy** March 27th 2010, 5:26 am

[That's the idea. Wink

]

Pansy felt sorry for him. Clearly, there was too much going on and he didn't know how to take care of it. She wanted to make things all better, because life was good when Severus was laughing, and she feared she may never see him laugh again. "You worry too much, Sev. You let things get bottled up inside you and when you finally start to let a little of it out, you just explode. It's not good for you. I almost feel like I could have helped, if I hadn't been so busy these past few days, off pouting by myself like a pathetic idiot. You just need to talk about things before they get out of hand. At least you stopped yourself once you realized, right? You can see what's going on, and that means we can fix this. You've got to put the past behind you. Sev, I know what it's like to have someone choose Hermione Granger over you." She found that she could say it now without emotions welling up inside her. She didn't even feel angry anymore. Maybe, finally, she really didn't care anymore.

**Daphne Greengrass** March 27th 2010, 5:31 am

[Well, what is going on here? *strokes imaginary goatee* *also was not here for a few days and doesn't know shit about the drama llama*]

Guest March 27th 2010, 5:35 am

Severus felt sick to his stomach, listening to Pansy. She was such a good friend- what the hell had been thinking? How selfish had he been? He felt squeamish, nauseous, guilty, and he knew it showed. He stared at her, a single tear sliding down his cheek. "It's not that he chose her, Pansy. It's why he did. Draco did what he did because he's a horny teenage guy, who's fickle, who can't make up his mind, and happens to be sexy and charismatic enough to get whatever he wants, whenever he wants. He fucked her because it's what he does, Pansy. But Remus... he didn't pick Hermione, to get in her pants. He picked Hermione, because she actually had something to offer him. She could give him what he needed, give him what I wanted to give him, but failed to. How can I live with myself, knowing that I'm never going to be good enough, never going to be worth anything, to anyone? You and Lily are the only ones who've ever thought differently, and you're both wrong. I've wronged you both, horribly. I hate myself, for all of it Pansy, for all I've done. I don't deserve to live," he whispered to himself, not caring how pathetic he sounded. He couldn't keep this all locked up inside him, not anymore, or somebody would be hurt. He stood up and looked at her, the guilt he felt written over his face. "I'm sorry," he muttered, before turning on his heel and darting to his dormitory, unable to tolerate himself any longer. He hated the person he was becoming.

[Gotta go, goodnight]

**Pansy Parkinson-Malfoy** March 27th 2010, 5:42 am

[Mkay, night Sevvy.]

She almost got up to run after him, to calm him down, but one thing he had said caught her off guard. I've wronged you both, horribly. What had he ever done to her? She couldn't think of anything, unless he was still talking about the astronomy tower, but, no. She was confused. Completely and utterly confused. His face had betrayed something deeper, she knew, but hadn't the slightest what it could be. He hadn't ever done anything to her, and he wouldn't... would he? She'd talk to him again later. Right now it wouldn't make a difference. He was too upset, and she still had too much vodka in her system anyway.
Then she realized all that Sev had said about Draco. It was all true, and she knew it now. That was who he was, and it couldn't change, she was convinced of that now and hated herself for not accepting it sooner. Why had she even attempted to think that they could have been something more? Why couldn't they have just left things as they were, back how it was before he left and before they tried to love each other. Back when they were sunny-day friends who could eat breakfast together and sit at the lake together and just enjoy life. Punching a pillow with more force than necessary, she leaned back in the couch and groaned, running her hands through her hair. Why was life so complicated?

**Daphne Greengrass** March 27th 2010, 5:43 am

[Ohhh shit. *falls backward* I'm bored. I'm just creeping.]

Guest March 27th 2010, 5:44 am

[Dee, you did read the Daily Reel, right?]

**Daphne Greengrass** March 27th 2010, 5:45 am

[What's the Daily Reel? *goes off to find this mysterious artifact* No... No I didn't.]

Guest March 27th 2010, 5:51 am

[-is too tired to figure out if you're being sarcastic- at least read the Snaco, if you didn't already... Now I'm going to bed, goodnight]

**Daphne Greengrass** March 27th 2010, 5:55 am

[Yes I'm being sarcastic. I've posted there. *is a rebel and isn't going to read Snaco* HAHA *runs*]

[Night!]

**Pansy Parkinson-Malfoy** March 27th 2010, 5:57 am

Dee Riddle wrote:[*is a rebel and isn't going to read Snaco* HAHA *runs*]

[Me neither. I am in denial of its existence.]

**Pansy Parkinson-Malfoy** March 27th 2010, 4:43 pm

Pansy woke up on the couch in the common room, not really remembering falling asleep here. She sat up and moved closer to the fire, as the room was still cold in the early morning hours. Sitting on the hearth with her cold toes near the flames, she let her mind wander as she stared into the dancing blaze. She needed to find Severus at some point, ask him what exactly he was talking about last night, but something deep down inside her made her think she didn't really want to know. A shiver shook her shoulders and she pulled the sleeves of her sweatshirt down over her hands, wrapping her arms around her legs. She had things to take care of today, a few essays that needed writing, but it could all be done later. For now, she just wanted to stare at the fire, undisturbed in the silence.

Guest March 27th 2010, 5:31 pm

-is in the library bored-

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