Re: [NC-17, NON-CON] Boy's Dormitory 3 (Regulus, Cormac, Antonin, Gellert)

[Claire McCann]

"I wouldn't expect even Gandhi to calm down after what I've heard from Scorpius. The reason we're fighting is because I told him you'd have told me and now he's angry because he doesn't think I trust him!" Faye gave him a look of complete confusion when he brought up the drugs and she waved it off with her hand, "I don't care about the drugs. You've decided to do that to yourself and rot your veins, so, if you have to do it - whatever, go for it. I don't care." She looked down at the spot where he told her to sit and she shook her head, "No. No. No. NO! I will not sit down. I was sitting down in the common room and ended up standing right back up again. You know, that will probably happen again. Knowing my fucking luck. God, why do I have the worst luck with people? I swear. Why would Scorpius and I fight? Well, let's see, how do I explain this..." She pretended to think about it, stroking a fake beard, "OH! RIGHT! Scorpius claims he peeked in here and found you and Gellert naked, assuming that you two did something. Together. He also saw drugs, but I knew about your drug usage. It's the Gellert part. Please. Please say he was lying."

[Guest]

Regulus paled slightly, and stared at Faye. So, that's how Viktor had found out so quickly- Scorpius. He closed his eyes and thought for a moment, unsure of what to say. "Faye, I... No, Scorpius isn't lying. He probably saw after I'd passed out," he mumbled, mostly to himself. "Faye- please- don't be so upset about this! I don't even understand why you are upset, really, alright? I'm just trying to get over Viktor, and Gellert was... he was helping me, was all. I was in here upset after Viktor left me, and Gellert was listening to me, he was comforting me, and then he kissed me, and then one thing led to another and... shit, Faye. I- I didn't realize it would upset you," he admitted, unsure of what to tell her.

[Claire McCann]

Faye backed away from him and shook her head, "I yelled at Scorpius...for nothing. He told me the truth and I yelled at him. I told him he was wrong because you would have told me. You didn't. You probably didn't have any intention on telling me..." She didn't look at him because she was off somewhere else. For a brief moment, she covered her face with her hands and desperately tried to control the anger that wanted to be released, "I don't think you would have cared if it would have upset me. All you care about now are your silly drugs and your stupid Gellert. I DON'T EVEN KNOW YOU ANYMORE, REGULUS! You are pathetic. You use the drugs as an excuse not to face your problems. I want you to stay away from me. You're changing into this...thing. It's not a monster. You're not anything like a monster. You're a parasite. You take what you want from people and then you go around and fuck them over. You're not a friend to me, Regulus. We were never meant to be friends. Hang out with Gellert. It's impossible to measure the amount of how much I could give a fuck. That's how small that amount is. Stay away from me and you can fuck with your life and ruin your veins, your body, your everything as much as you fucking want because I want nothing to do with you anymore." Faye turned to leave, her head aching, and the urge to faint coming back at all once.

[Guest]

Regulus jumped to his feet, staring at her in horror. No, he couldn't be losing yet someone else, no he couldn't, no, he wouldn't- "Faye, please! Stop! Don't, don't be like this," he said weakly reaching out for her to stop her from leaving. "Don't say things like that, it's not true! I do care! I do care about you, alright? You- you're one of maybe three friends I've got left, of course I care about you, and if you're upset. You mean something to me Faye, you do- I just, I wasn't thinking, alright? Especially not that night! I'd just lost Viktor, I'd lost everything, and he was there, he was being a friend to me, he was caring for me- he was doing what he thought would be good for me, he was giving me what I needed. I just- I didn't think that it would bother you at all! I mean, you have Scorpius, it's not like you care about Gellert! I didn't- I just- I just wanted, needed something more to take away the hurt, okay? I'm not trying to fuck you over! I'm not! I'm just trying to get on with my life, and it's fucking hard," he stammered, taking a hold of her hand. "Please don't go. I... Faye, you're my friend," he said quietly, looking at her with sadness and desperation.

[Claire McCann]

"Drugs and sex when you're high doesn't take away the entirety of the pain. In case you haven't noticed, it's always there when you come back down. It waits for you and then it destroys you when you're at your lowest. The way to get through things is not through your methods, but even when I try to convey that to you, you don't care. I love Scorpius, but my history with Gellert...it makes me wonder why I'm friends with someone who is supporting the one person I don't want to remember. Ever. Ever in my life. Situations with Gellert ruined me. The fact that you associate with someone who assisted in leading me towards the path that nearly caused my death hurts me. If you can't see that, I can't - I don't want to be here with you. I've made it through my life without drugs and I'm the fucking mudblood of Slytherin. I've made it after losing the person I've loved and slicing apart my arms and nearly dying. I made it. I made it without the use of the drugs that you've tortured yourself with." She stared at him, humiliated and embarrassed, but still hurt over what had happened, "How am I your friend when you don't tell me things? When you depend on...when you depend on drugs instead of the help of your friends to get you by? That's not friendship..."

[Guest]

Regulus gaped at Faye in shock, as she had never really told him what had happened, only that she self-harmed; clearly, he had been wrong about the severity of the situation. Unable to control himself and his instincts, he abruptly threw his arms around her and pulled her into a tight hug, horrified at the thought of losing Faye like that. He let go as suddenly as he'd embraced her, his eyes communicating his sincere sorrow, but not remorse. "Faye, I had no idea, I... I'm sorry, that it happened like that, that you went through that, I am. I didn't... I should have been there, for you, but I was too caught up in myself to even notice," he said softly, before pausing to think for a moment. "Look, I know that things with you and Gellert, well, they didn't go well, to put it lightly. And you are my friend, and I do care about you. But Gellert is my friend too- probably my best friend. And while things went wrong between the two of you, it doesn't mean it's going to do the same for me. He's been there for me when I needed him, he's stayed by my side, he's taken care of me, and he's tried to protect me, in the past. I'm not going to just give that up, Faye- I need him. As for the drugs, well, you know what, I wish I was like you. I wish I was as strong and brave as you are, and I wish I could get by without them, like you do. But I'm not you. I'm weak and pathetic for it, and I know that, but it doesn't change who I am, or the fact that I do need them. I can't go more than a few hours without something, Faye. Nobody can help me now, not even you. I'm too far gone. I need them to get by, because that's all I'm even doing anymore- just trying to get by. Because I'm nothing without him, nothing without Viktor. I think I used to have a purpose, but then again, that might have been a dream. At least with the drugs, I can feel like I'm alive."

[Apologies for the vast amount of Nine Inch Nails lyrics usage. I'm listening to The Downward Spiral and that entire album is Reg's life right now. Not to mention most of With Teeth.]